I have been passed over for promotion in all positions (military and civilian). Which is super common to all job seekers. This isnt a new phenomenon. I know millions that have come before me have experienced the same thing.
This gives me a series of emotions from “hey, fuck them-cool I’ll do better next time-I wasn’t the right person.” Each are excuses. Excuses don’t fulfill dreams and they don’t pay bills. There must be a winner and there must be a loser. But damn, man.
That feeling of inadequacy is devastating. I’m not ok with this feeling. I am not ok with the thought. I am not ok with going back to my existing position as if nothing happened. I am going to carry callus. I am going to carry remorse.I am going to carry the thought process that I am better than this position. Rejection is difficult. However, I am an adult and am required to muscle through as of nothing happened. I have not had a drink in 37 months. This incident makes me want one. However, I can see in the future and the future is a hangover and furthermore will make me angry about the progress I lost.
I normally send myself emails as a form of therapy full of my rants but that hasn’t produced the fulfillment I’d hoped for so I am trying something new. FB is a place to share family and jokes so I am giving this an attempt in an effort to help me and am beyond hesitant sharing but feel the need to.
Connected Vets 